i've got ally's situation

I want love, but it's impossible
A man like me, so irresponsible
A man like me is dead in places
Other men feel liberated

I can't love, shot full of holes
Don't feel nothing, I just feel cold
Don't feel nothing, just old scars
Toughening up around my heart

But I want love, just a different kind
I want love, won't break me down
Won't brick me up, won't fence me in
I want a love, that don't mean a thing
That's the love I want, I want love

I want love on my own terms
After everything I've ever learned
Me, I carry too much baggage
Oh man I've seen so much traffic

So bring it on, I've been bruised
Don't give me love that's clean and smooth
I'm ready for the rougher stuff
No sweet romance, I've had enough

(I Want Love - Elton John)


in Ally's world:

Up in her office, Glenn joins her, wondering why she left Elton John, and then wants the answer his earlier question about a date. She says that because she is older and a woman, she is smarter about love she knows that either one of two things would happen. "It wouldn't work out, and that would be very awkward because we work together. Or it would work out and that would be a disaster." She goes on to ask, "Did you ever consider that if we were to go out, and we started seeing each other over and over and over again, we might start spending the night together....It could get serious...We could even fall in love...and I'd get crushed, because that's what happens." Glenn thinks it's all about fear, but Ally says that she is just practical and that she promised herself that when she died, it would be written on her tombstone that "She was practical."

in my world:

it wouldn't work out neither, so awkward, because you don't know the man u're dealing now. or it would work and that would be a disaster. you've got yourself a lover you're even gonna married.

If we were go out, and we startes seeing each other over and over and over again, then you plan to have your studio beside my room, sleep on my bed. it could get me an addiction.. i could even want you more.. and i'd get chrushed by your leaving, because that's what happens

(the scene taken from Ally McBeal; fifth season - "I Want Love", and this chapter of my life)